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i hate a girl who starts with a c and ends with a assie

Sat, 10 Sep 2005 23:17:44 GMT

Its been a long time since ive written. you might ask why is ben still writing when all thses lovely comments keep popping up. well ill tell you. first order of buisness is the kid who hit zach is goin to have to "have his teeth introduced to a lead pipe"second order of buissness elle and slutmaster 3000 X 4 hmmm how to word this??? oky i have an idea im just going to throw it out and you tell me if its any good or appropiate considering the situation. YOU ARE WITH OUT A DOUBT SOME OF THE WORST FRIENDS EVER FIRST OFF YOU GUYS JUST DITCHED MICHELLE SHE WAS REALLY SAD PLUS YOU WERE ACTING DRUNK WHEN WE ALL KNOW YOU WERENT WAY TO BE COOL! THEN TO SAY YOUR NOT SORRY? WELL HMMMM WHAT ELSE IS THERE TO SAY? OOO YEA CASSIE way to go on the havin boys stay the night did you enjoy the feeling below the belt you must have. well is there anything else to add? ill ask my good buddy aaron...."OH and way to get all boosed up and lose all self respect by having stupid boys take advantage of your skanky, squeaky bitch of a scene girl self...and fuck you....well there you have it the words of ben and arron about friday night at the box social. good day and adue.

power animal penguin

Fri, 15 Jul 2005 21:50:20 GMT

so yea its been awhile since last i did this well not to much has been goin on. bands doing pritty good show at the local on the 23 so thats kewl. ummm me and cassie broke up. my bp buddy has a bf,so i guess im taking up the title man whore mouse again. ummm tonights the big harry potter covention so i guess i better rest up.

"i like my coffe black just like my metal"

josh's b day party

Fri, 24 Jun 2005 06:26:39 GMT

so i when to to joshs b day party and well it was sweet. ashley came over and we all got fucked up it was alot of fun.ive seen and heard the coolest things tonight ahsley is so fucking kewl. yea so what else? i miss cassie she left town for a bit and it sux cuz i havnt seen her in like 7 days.
but ill get to see her on saturday so fuck yea!!! well i guess im out
later

"you mean this isnt your car?"

so slpeepy

Mon, 20 Jun 2005 14:22:48 GMT

well i woke up early today cuz i had to go get my fines from the school now im at joshs and getting ready for band practice. last night i whent over to nanners and watched a movie which was gay it was about a dog who ate people. then i whent over to joshs. ehhhhhh i miss cassie we dont talk half enough for me to be satisfied. but ooo well what can you do? well soon i have to go to petco to turn in joshs aplication. hmmmm what else? ooo yea i forgot to put this in awhile ago but me and evan had an awesome time after our show thank you to all the girls who took your cloths off.

"i live in a world of what the hells"

like sticking nails in my hand

Sat, 18 Jun 2005 19:29:49 GMT

not much has been goin on today cassie is sick which sux and i was suppose to go to atfw concert tonight but i dunno if i can. if not i have a party to go to so ill keep myself busy. damn i have this bad habit of looking at old pictures and poems and even new ones with that certain someone in it and it drives me crazy why do i torture myself? well hopefully ill get to fucked up to remeber my name or hers "her name not being cassie cuz i love her" but yea summer is moving along slow but im still entertaining myself supposably we might start recording on monday but i dont hold to much faith but if we do end up getting that out you should i dunno buy it and stuff. hmmmm waiting for josh's mom to come back with the car.....what else is there to say? other then the next i talk with you i will be hungover.
later

i feel pritty and witty and .....

Fri, 17 Jun 2005 02:16:12 GMT

so last night was FFR's first show it was fun thanx to all who came and played with us and you kids who just sat in the rain kudos to you.i whent to the mall today with buddah it was good fun but the best thing that happened was yestarday when i whent to cassies it was soooo much fun just ask evan hehehehe, yea but it was sweet to see her and all my friends now im off to my house with buddah jack and brian.

"im so hap hap happy and i want to say im with cassie and shes here to stay"

To busy to tie my own shoes

Tue, 14 Jun 2005 22:09:00 GMT

Well tomarrow night ffr plays its first show with flushings badass jack walton and his band a time for war. its been really busy lately practices drama smoke runs and it all comes down to tomarrow. you should all come and support us and if you hate us then come for a time for war and and if you hate them ill knife your ass. well im done so later

"ive seen what your made of and im not impressed"

act"s can sux my ass

Sat, 11 Jun 2005 17:24:25 GMT

well about 10 mins ago i got back from acts and i never want to do that again it was gay to the max.now im sittin here hangin with buddah. anyway so yestarday suxed everyone was in a bad mood cept for our lil buddah. damn everything was fucked up we whent to the mall and chilled out for a few. did a lil shoppin at blue moon. ummm not much else to say so peace out.

"the reason i hit my head with a hammer is because it feels so good when i stop"

i once knew a boy named travis

Sat, 04 Jun 2005 05:17:10 GMT

so on one fateful day being yestarday a boy named travis came into all of our lives he will not soon be forgotten by the pshycological damage he did to all lol he flirted and was all over every guy there it was the strangest thing. aside from that being yestardAY today i skipped with nanner and jil it was kewl they bought me lunch and we had a gay time it suxed a bit tho cuz i wanted to see cassie cuz i wasnt gunna be able to see her this weekend but o well i needed a break from school. then i got dropped off at josh's and we chilled out for a bit then it was off to buddahs for an awesome party its so extreme over here but were the only people invited a members only club if you will,well this night not gunna end and i need to get back to the party.i wonder if i put things in captions if no one can read then so here i go (i think im falling for her) oky well i leave ya to your own lifes and you can quit reading about mine.

"dont waste your life on love, dont set your heart at sea, cuz you know you cant float on relationships"

i have holes in my ears

Mon, 30 May 2005 00:15:39 GMT

well if wonderful weekends were able to be sold id offer you mine but im selfish. so on friday i whent to king par and had golf madness with my number one sweetheart oh yea and my gf heh just joking but yea. it was loads of fun i kicked their asses i have the score card in my room. it was a swell time i havnt done that in sooo long.hmmm then josh came home and we had a band practice and hung out which was orgasmic. arron had some troubles with stuff but i wont get into that.and then today it was off to cult and then i whent put putting again with the family. and now im at buddahs just chillin hmmm oh yea i have me ears pierced wich is kewl. were just trying to find something to do raise a lil hell en all. damn tho i have a fuckin gf thats kick ass shes sooo awesome oky enough of this i need to go do something so ummm yea until next time.

"the words fall into place i hope she falls on her face who the fuck is he he is not me this sweetshirt in room 109 your bundled up and need some time alone."

fuck you clown

Sat, 21 May 2005 20:27:00 GMT

so yea its been a few since i last told you kids whats up with the wonderful world of benji. so in short its a roller coaster of well everything i have recently left tdr and joined the band Falling for russia. ummm its sweet i have alot of fun with it and yea hopefully we'll have a demo soon but i seem to have bad luck with thoose tonite is the natalie fight concert so that should be a sweet time. yea so i kinda have a crush on this one girl i wont name any names for the sake of my embarassment if everything goes sour well i will see you all later.

the man looked at the clown and said "hey " the clown turned what? "fuck you clown"

thankful for friends

Tue, 03 May 2005 21:02:47 GMT

if someone asked you to be happy could you do it? could you let go of all your misery and just live? even though you seem to have nothing going for you and all you want to do is sleep until death takes you. for about 7 or 8 months now ive tried to be happy and ill tell you now that no amount of drugs vodka or any other substance has really made that happen. the times when i am happy i owe that all to my friends and without them i wouldnt be here right now. (so a big round of applause for them) sometimes i just really wish i could forget....forget memories places even people life would be so much easier in some ways. ignoring your problems helps, taking down old pictures and poems helps ease the pain of certain things but not everything goes away. ive tried my damnest to be happy and not to dwell on failed loves or frienships but i cant stop myself always. seeing pictures can make a whole months progress wash away in a second and its not at all fair. in a moment you can be taken back to how the sky looked that day, how excited you were ,how happy or how much in love you were. thats the sad part though there is a "were" after it all.

"How do you go on?
how do you pick up the threads of an old life?
when in your heart you begin to understand there is no going back
there are some things time cannot mend
some hurts that go too deep
and have taken hold"

a month wasted

Mon, 02 May 2005 00:30:04 GMT

so the news about this weekend well we played at noisefest which was sweet except for the fact we got there fuckin 4 and ahalf hours early but o well we did a good job all in all and its gunna be on a dvd so go fuckin buy it!!1 umm what else well me and buddah found out that for a month weve been arguing about the wrong girl, we serinaded a cop and later told lil kids to burn in the eternal flames of hell, ummmmmmm i tried goin girlshopping but the selection sux so ooo well ummm not much else happened today or this weekend so peace out

'the body must suffer for the soul to bloom"

alices- were the judge on looks not talent

Thu, 28 Apr 2005 03:12:43 GMT

so today was the big alices and it was surprisingly sweet we did a decent job on our set and people actually liked us which was a bit of a surprise to me. everyone did really good especially chad "sprinkles" did a sweet job and should have won the solos i also have to give it up to fairmount which should have one the band section hmmm what else yea so i kinda have a crush on this girl or maybe i dont i dunno depends on the time of day but its odd cuz shes really different from me shes all preppy and stuff but o well im still goin girlshopping on sat so umm yea im gunna go get some food.

"i wish i was stronger i wish i could see i wish i could change the world for you and me"

i sux at bowling

Mon, 25 Apr 2005 20:24:30 GMT

so this weekend kicked ass me buddah derek josh joshs bro and friend all came over and we roasted a cat. then me buddah and derek had fun with vodka and then the next morning we whent to the mall with josh. had a fuckin blast i havnt had that much fun in awhile it was nice to quite worring about my problems and just have fun. i also saw a freakin hott girl at fye and then joshs mom gave us money to go bowling which we did and we frekin bowled our hearts out unfourtunently my high score was a 72 but i still ghad a blast. today started out shaky with a few fucks about band which led to me and derek throwing the fucks into fuck yous about it but its goin better now alices is in a few days and so today we have band well thats about it .

"if our eyes are the windows to our souls why do so many people wear sunglasses"

parting with the past

Tue, 19 Apr 2005 00:05:35 GMT

so today wasnt the greatest i when to school and it was shitty cuz i had drama probs with a friend of mine also i when to marleys and we watched elecktra and oddly enough a half naked girl killing things didnt make me feel all that better...i gave away my ex's things today. parting with the past is a painful thing but i guess i need to? so hard to think of the last time i was actaully completely content. last year fucked things up soo bad and yet i dont really want to let go of it. its kinda weird how one moment can change your life in a huge way if not for one friday football game i might not be in this mess or worse i might be alot worse. there im tryin to be positive? o well im sick of writing.
'if it wasnt for my hourse i would have spent that year in college"

20 $

Sun, 17 Apr 2005 04:53:31 GMT

so this weekend was kewl we had a show in lansing on fri were we almost got into some "fistacuffs" with still at large cuz they charged dereks sis 20 $ to play a fuckin benifit show you dont do that thats gay right there. but the show was fun and we did oky but today at buddafest we blew it all away with an awesome set and with some kick ass bands to help with the madness that is buddahfest. then we whent to josh's party and partied it up with some of our fans and our bros from inflicted who atre apparently now goin on tour with us! so yea that fuckin rocks all in all today was an awesome night i loved it took away all the drama the bitching and the everyday pain that goes with life and all i had to pay for it was a few bruises a cut leg(thanx jack for hitting me with that thorny thing" and a bloody lip so fuck yea it was worth it. thanx for all who came out we love you all and i want to say sorrie if i ditched anyone at the show cuz i was kinda all over the place especially to arayana, kassie and kali. but yea sweet night and i will update later this month we have alices and ummmmmm noisefest so be kewl and go see it.

and the beat goes on...

Sun, 10 Apr 2005 03:21:14 GMT

well today i whent to practice and then came back to my home with amp for some go cart madness then i whent to a generals game were i met up with buddah and i met some chick named ashleey or amy or something with an a . also id figure ill just adress this now and get it out of the way....

Yeah, it's me, whether you like it or not. I don't really know what to say, but I'm sorry of what I did and what I didn't do...I guess, I don't know. It's for the best though...do you believe that too?
Take care.
-Danella

that is my ex and i wasnt gunna bring her name into this but since she volunteered herself i cant help it. do i believe that too she askes? well youve read my last entries does it sound like im agreeing with you? i mean how obvious can i make this well here i go at one last stab I DO NOT AGREE WITH YOU IF YOU HAVNT PICKED UP A HINT I STILL LIKE YOU... so i hope thats not too harsh but sometimes people have to harsh to get a point across. well lets see were this roller coaster goes.

busy little bee

Sat, 09 Apr 2005 03:03:33 GMT

so ive had 2 whole days at my job and i well i hate it. im gettin out as soon as i get some cash. so besides my job my band has been really busy this month we have a show almost every weekend which is good cuz it keeps me busy and i love rockin out. well as far as my "personal life" goes its kinda weird im trying just to ignore any thoughts or feelings about my ex and its workin for the most part cuz ive been so busy. and ive actually met a few girls i have a little bits of crushes on...*squels like a girl* hmmm what else? not much really my friend has to go get heart surgery so that sux i hope it goes well so ill admit it i was listaning to chiodos when i was depressed and theres a nice song that made me think of my situation with my ex so read and be jollier then i currently am.

do anything to make her happy even if it means my being miserable.as long as shes loving life. ill be able to sleep at night with a smile apon her face, ill be able to sleep at night with a smile apon her face. the thought of a smile not being there my inner feelings would be shattered a piece of glass punchering my heart im bleeding from the inside.ill be able to sleep at night with a smile apon her face ill be able to sleep at night with a smile apon her face. as long as shes perfectly fine i hope shes perfectly fine 'and someday she will be mine"

i put the last thing in " cuz thats not how my life is gunna go but the rest is completely true of how i feel. well catch ya later

what a day...

Wed, 06 Apr 2005 02:10:24 GMT

"ben you have ten minuits" is the first thing i hear this morning followed by the "you dont have time to eat' so i throw on some close slip on my hat and im downstairs trying to get some coffee in before i head out the door, but unfortuently i cant seem to find my shoes so i didnt even get my coffe.so this morning coupled with the fact that ive been completely miserable due to my personal life didnt make for that grand of a day. uhhhhhhhh i start work tomarow so im sure ill be even more cranky and shit but yea god i hate bein alone i wish for once just once i could have a gf that was a kewl normal person who lived here but seeing how that isnt exactly what flushing is known for ill settle for rocking out with my friends and bitching to people online. luckaly i dont believe anyone reads this so i have the comfort in knowing that not everyone will come up to me at school and be all "ooo im so sorrie and i still love you" cuz honestly it only helps a lil and the rest just makes me feel bad cuz you might love me but yet i lack someone to love myself....funny how life works i guess well im done writing another sob story.

such an idoit

Mon, 04 Apr 2005 20:07:43 GMT

well judging by the title of this entry you can guess its not full of flowers ,bunnies or lolly pops, i whent to texas for spring break and while i was there my ex asked me back out and being an idiot i said yess. i was really happy with our relationship till it abruptly ended one week later. so is that like a record or something? one week yea its kinda pathetic. so i felt like shit and to be honest still do but one good thing that comes out of despair is inspiration so its not a total waste. in all honesty i just want her to be happy thats how much i care about her so im glad shes at least happy and hopefully i will be too.well before as derek would say it "watch you wallow in your own self misery' ill leave ya with my song deally.

My last love letter
This last love letter sent to you with a box full of pictures tucked under my bed. and a full year of memories screamin in my head. And its hard to let go when the only thing you have is the heart that morns her. but the only feeling you have is regret for the things you never showed her. the love you had but never let out the letters you should have wrote but you were too full of doubt. the sad thing is you'll never get the chance to tell her again because its finally over your love story came to an end. But ill ramble on in hopes that despair will leave when this last love letter comes to a close, written with all my tears and sealed with all my blood. this last love letter is written to you darling i hope you see how deep my feelings ran for you, but ill always cheerish the fairy tale romance i held close to my heart but only lived in my dreams.

Pictures..yay

Wed, 16 Mar 2005 21:54:59 GMT

So, in Math everyday Me, Cortnee and Sarah and them all sit together and its really fun. I used to think cortnee was a bitch last year but now ihave a class with her and shes is cool as hell. She always brings in her camera and takes pictures so here are some of them:

Me and hott Cortnee

Cortnee

Cortnee and Daniy, even though it's a little blurry it's alright

Cortnee and Daniy, better

She loves this picture lol

haha..Me, Sarah and Cortnee

Me, Sarah and Cortnee our naughty picture

That scares me a bit

Cortnee and Sarah..i get their bodies when they die ;-) haha

Cortnees a ganster....\/ haha The End

a good day

Mon, 14 Mar 2005 23:34:16 GMT

well today was ummm weird first it started off normal but then it ened up being good cuz i was in a good mood not sure why i was i hadnt smoked in awhile and the whole me possibly getting back together with my ex thing is for the most part a lost cause but im still havin a good day i just found out that tdr will be playing at noisefest so thats freakin sweet. other then that im bored and im gunno go do something more productive.

bored

Sun, 13 Mar 2005 20:52:18 GMT

wow my very own journal were everyone can read what i think about shit! truth is i dont really see the point in these things i mean do you really think im just goin to disclose every personal event and feeling to the mass public? well seeing how i now have this i guess i should. today sux i mean really sux im here on the comp cuz i dont have a life and im listening to Bleeding through which is a kick ass band but i dont even think there gunna make this day anymore eventful. so the weekend was sweet i got to see an old friend and im hoping that maybe that will turn into something i also had a band pratice working on a new song which i like and blah blah blah i think im done because i dont have much else to say.